how to say goodbye to the ones you love

will there ever be a proper way to say goodbye?

as much as i hate it...

there will be no easy way to say it,

there will be no easy way to get over someone that trully matters to you...





i know i always have hard time dealing with this...

it's hard... painful... hurtful...

it doesn't get easy...

but in the end i know i have to accept it...





it will never be easy getting over someone you love...

because i know i won't...

but as long as i have their memories in my heart...

i will always have them...

for me to hold them...

for me to talk to them...

for me to love them as long as i live...





there is no easy way to do it...

but we have to move on...
and just bring their memories with us...

and the love that we always have for them...


i know this because...

it's the only reason why i'm still breathing right now...

MY first Official Entry

being far away from my family really help me to live on my own & never to depend on anybody except for myself. i had created walls and barriers because that's how i thought i'll survive.

ofcourse, i kept my close friends with me. trust is a very big factor to me. i try not to let anyone get into my life that easy.



pessimist? yeah... big time...

i can't deny the fact that i had my shares of unfortunate events in this world.

i can list it here, but i'd rather not.



but a certain forum, caught my attention...

and before i knew it, i was gaining friends... more than i expect for...

strangers... that will have big impact in my life... in cyber and in reality...

strangers that i get to know and really like and surprise of all surprises strangers that i had learn to trust and eventually became my friends...



friends...

who stood by me...

supported me...

love me...

trusted me...

and befriended me...

i can never be thankful enough... it had brought a new meaning to me...



i don't know what made me do it...

i don't want to think about it anymore...

i'm just ever so grateful to all of them...

for teaching me a new meaning of LIFE... :)